/ 10:41:00 PM

[Mood: Unsettled]

[Music: Phat Tape 21 - a UM mix]



Like a Hamster on Wheels



I pormised myself that I won't let myself get caught up in this vicious cycle again. It's unhealthy, counterproductive and overly stressful.



Me, dreading for Monday to come.

Me, worrying about pending tasks a-sitting and a-waiting on my desk.

Me, convincing myself to not think about it at all.



Yay me! I completely ruined my weekend by thinking of work.



My head hurts.



Meep.

~^~^~^~^~

Silver Lining



If it's any consolation, I've been feeling a little less useless workwise. I still don't feel like I'm.. you know.. remotely important so I'm thinking "a little less useless" would be the more fitting term to use.



The JFM quarter is the recruitment season for most hiring companies so it goes without saying that February and March are particularly abound with job fairs galore. So far, last Friday's was JobFair #8 and the sixth one that I've gone to in which I've been fully unsupervised.



That fully unsupervised thing? Rocks. My. Hoodie.



It's not so much as being in control that floats my boat. Rather, it's the proving to myself that I can do more than I think I can that gives me the high.



First of all, I'm not the type of person who easily engages in small talk and idle chatter with total strangers. I'm paranoid that way. And hey, that's just not me. I've manned org booths before but that was slightly different in the sense that I was there for support and not totally expected to do all the "sales talk" stuff. So this time, having to man the company booth all by my lonesome was simply something I had to do. But I wasn't sure how I was exactly gonna fare on that task.



So now imagine my surprise when I found myself chatting up those students with an ease I didn't know I was capable of. Then realizing that I actually enjoyed going through the motions? That was just sooper. I prolly sound like I'm twelve but that was.. awesome.



It wasn't always that comfy. The night before the very first school I had to go to, I was this convoluted bundle of nerves, going over the "spiel" I had prepared, practicing it over and over so that I can deliver it without sounding like it's been rehearsed. *cheeky grin* I had this worst case scenario playing in my head: that my mind will go completely blank come showtime and I'll end up like a stuttering newbie. Suffice to say that I had a hard time getting some sleep that night.



In reality, that was merely six weeks back. But now, it feels like a long time ago. I must've repeated my spiel over a thousand times in so many different ways that I'd prolly have no trouble reciting it in my sleep.



I kid you not.



True, my throat runs screaming in protest at all the talking I have to do every time I go to a jobfair. But I'm not complaining. Nu-uh. I lurve being out on the field. It's boring as hell when most of the students are having their classes but it sure beats staring at the computer screen all day long and freezing my ass off back at the office slaving over some paperwork.



But then again, being out for consecutive days means not being able to attend to the rigors of everyday work and it's that kind backlog that's proving to be a bitch.



Makes me wanna crawl into a hole and hide there until all this blows over.

~^~^~^~^~

THIS and THAT: Haay(na)Ku #2a:

Unintentional



I screwed up again

and though you're in the picture

it's not about you.

~^~^~^~^~

THIS and THAT: Haay(na)Ku #2b:

Masamang Biro



Totoo. Pramis.

Di ako nananadya.

Nagkataon lang.

~^~^~^~^~

The Crash



I've been having J/I Fic Withdrawal the past week. SD-1.com @#!%$ crashed and us sheep were ostensibly forced off our proverbial path. Left to scatter and wallow in the windless ficdom where J/I goodness used to be.



It was horrible.



Never knew how much you've come to depend on something till you wake up one day and it ain't there anymore.



*sniffles*



But a few days ago, the sun chose to shine on us once again. SD-1's baaaack! Resurrected and reborn as SD-1.net! But minus anything and everything beyond 31 Dec 2003. *pouts* Nearly two months worth of threads, posts and fics forever lost in the black hole of cyberspace. And that piece of news is what kept me from doing the happy dance.



This is just so..



*sighs*



But SD-1 is up and running again. So I should be happy. Right?



So this is what? Er.. hormones?!



*LOL*

~^~^~^~^~

FL!CK P!CKS: Chasing Diane Keaton



I caught Chasing Liberty last week. Hee. I wasn't even planning on watching it in the first place. I mean, helloooo.. Mandy Moore?! But it was one of those spur of the moment, "nagkayayaan sa office" Friday thing. I wasn't thinking too clearly when I said yes to them and it only occurred to me much much later that I had agreed to watch a Mandy Moore movie. *facepalm* By then, I felt too much of a cow to back out.



So the movie... it was a light and flufffeh feel-good film. If sap makes you feel good, that is. *LOL* I'm not saying that it's flat out terrible. I'd even go as far as saying that it wasn't as bad as I had expected it to be. Though I must say that it's the B-plot romance that's wholly responsible for that last sentence. I loved Weiss and Morales! Those two secret servants had much more chemistry and tension than the actual leads. Theirs was the typical cat and dog bickering that romantic comedies are made of. Nothing really new to crow about but their sparring was a delight to watch. And that alone saved my viewing experience from completely going down the drain.



But I still feel robbed of my P130.



*****



I was glued to the tube last night. After watching Gilmore Girls and Jade, I was still feeling restless so I decided to watch Something's Gotta Give.



I luff it!



It was funny and touching and just made me forget about everything else while I was watching it. And that's how you know how effectively entertaining a film is, right? When it allows you to drift from the real world without keeping track of real time. Coz when it was over and I looked at the clock, only then did I realize that it was already 2:30 in the morning. [o.O]



And OMG, I don't think I've ever seen Diane Keaton look more beautiful. She was positively radiant. You know like everytime Erica smiles, I find myself actually smiling back at her character. *sheepish*



But I'm not saying that SGG is without its flaws. It certainly has its tedious moments (Erica's post non-break up crying bouts, for instance) but I'm laying off my nitpicking and letting those annoying scenes slide if only for the general impression I was left with. I can't quite put my finger on it but by the film's end, I was looking all goofy and wistful and unable to wipe the silly smile off of my face.



And how can that ever be considered a bad thing?



Luff it!

~^~^~^~^~

Aba Aba Abba



Our friendly neighbor is at it again. Before, it was Sarah Geronimo. Then came Sex Bomb and Masculados. Now, they've been playing Abba music for the past three days.



Maddening!



*stomp*



I'm sorely tempted to play equally blaring music. You know, just for spite. But I don't think they'll get the message. Ja-face mga yun eh. Feeling ko, lalo lang silang mag-e-enjoy.



*rolls eyes*

PROFILE: I am blah from class here and is born on 00/00/00, time. and so love me like this. I was so cute, I am totally an element that you'd never ever known, you can;t find it in the periodic table cause no one has even found it- I explode in your face just like potassium when it touches water, it's really explosive, you should really run away first before I do spark into flames and burn you alive! I love blasting my music as well, when love sync (elissa) let me hear Cry-Rihanna, i have been like addicted to it like drugs- oh wait. it's worse than drugs, it's better, more addictive than drugs. listen to that song! and this is one of my last blogskin that i will produce until the EOYs of 2008, cause i flunked Biology, ARGHS! OMG I SURE DIE LIKE !@#$% and i am emo now like under ltos of peer pressure and bad seniors.



having been in hwa chong institution (just like make it long so you can preview a long post or wad that fits right down underneath which i think i shall crap all day today) my eyes have been wanting to close since 20:00 (8PM)), I was so tired, cause the syllabus in hwachong is really so hard that no one can sleep really well. The new CSE classes (aka. Centre for Scholaristic Excellence) and is also known for it's famous nickname Cannot Sleep Everyday or Early. Is like even the teachers know, so the homework is reduced, but it's like OMG! will die, this year already so hard, next year i say "die!" mati already lar. arghs!NEXT, A RIOT OF COLORS, WHAT DO YOU THINK OF ME. AND I KNOW THAT I BRUISE EASILY. LEAP OF FATE LIKE i never know and i'm learning to fly and a safety net to cushion the blow. and i feel so suicidal and note "I BRUISE EASILY" and be gentle when you handle me.




hello once again, i have been having nightmares,no one is doing work for my project , whcih is true. supposed to do "family planning" is like whatever lar, when will we be able to use it not like very soon we are gonna have kids, settle down, earn money have NSman relief or whatsoever or even Children Relief, is like wtf. I am eating CIGAR ROLLS, they are vilina flavoured and jsut finished my bowl of ice cream which tasted so mixed, haha btu it was ncie to me (: I like mix of flavours liek suddenly a RIOT of colors and A EXPLOSION of taste! I mean like it's really impactful come to think about it, and cause my project has to be handed in by friday so i shall rush typign finish this retarded paragraph. like hello! ello! buhello! darkdegree will go on HIATUS soon. and i am so emo, i feel like slashing my wrist now, it's true adn don't look down on me for that i know people discriminate.

see you there at hiatus land.

/ 10:41:00 PM

[Mood: Unsettled]

[Music: Phat Tape 21 - a UM mix]



Like a Hamster on Wheels



I pormised myself that I won't let myself get caught up in this vicious cycle again. It's unhealthy, counterproductive and overly stressful.



Me, dreading for Monday to come.

Me, worrying about pending tasks a-sitting and a-waiting on my desk.

Me, convincing myself to not think about it at all.



Yay me! I completely ruined my weekend by thinking of work.



My head hurts.



Meep.

~^~^~^~^~

Silver Lining



If it's any consolation, I've been feeling a little less useless workwise. I still don't feel like I'm.. you know.. remotely important so I'm thinking "a little less useless" would be the more fitting term to use.



The JFM quarter is the recruitment season for most hiring companies so it goes without saying that February and March are particularly abound with job fairs galore. So far, last Friday's was JobFair #8 and the sixth one that I've gone to in which I've been fully unsupervised.



That fully unsupervised thing? Rocks. My. Hoodie.



It's not so much as being in control that floats my boat. Rather, it's the proving to myself that I can do more than I think I can that gives me the high.



First of all, I'm not the type of person who easily engages in small talk and idle chatter with total strangers. I'm paranoid that way. And hey, that's just not me. I've manned org booths before but that was slightly different in the sense that I was there for support and not totally expected to do all the "sales talk" stuff. So this time, having to man the company booth all by my lonesome was simply something I had to do. But I wasn't sure how I was exactly gonna fare on that task.



So now imagine my surprise when I found myself chatting up those students with an ease I didn't know I was capable of. Then realizing that I actually enjoyed going through the motions? That was just sooper. I prolly sound like I'm twelve but that was.. awesome.



It wasn't always that comfy. The night before the very first school I had to go to, I was this convoluted bundle of nerves, going over the "spiel" I had prepared, practicing it over and over so that I can deliver it without sounding like it's been rehearsed. *cheeky grin* I had this worst case scenario playing in my head: that my mind will go completely blank come showtime and I'll end up like a stuttering newbie. Suffice to say that I had a hard time getting some sleep that night.



In reality, that was merely six weeks back. But now, it feels like a long time ago. I must've repeated my spiel over a thousand times in so many different ways that I'd prolly have no trouble reciting it in my sleep.



I kid you not.



True, my throat runs screaming in protest at all the talking I have to do every time I go to a jobfair. But I'm not complaining. Nu-uh. I lurve being out on the field. It's boring as hell when most of the students are having their classes but it sure beats staring at the computer screen all day long and freezing my ass off back at the office slaving over some paperwork.



But then again, being out for consecutive days means not being able to attend to the rigors of everyday work and it's that kind backlog that's proving to be a bitch.



Makes me wanna crawl into a hole and hide there until all this blows over.

~^~^~^~^~

THIS and THAT: Haay(na)Ku #2a:

Unintentional



I screwed up again

and though you're in the picture

it's not about you.

~^~^~^~^~

THIS and THAT: Haay(na)Ku #2b:

Masamang Biro



Totoo. Pramis.

Di ako nananadya.

Nagkataon lang.

~^~^~^~^~

The Crash



I've been having J/I Fic Withdrawal the past week. SD-1.com @#!%$ crashed and us sheep were ostensibly forced off our proverbial path. Left to scatter and wallow in the windless ficdom where J/I goodness used to be.



It was horrible.



Never knew how much you've come to depend on something till you wake up one day and it ain't there anymore.



*sniffles*



But a few days ago, the sun chose to shine on us once again. SD-1's baaaack! Resurrected and reborn as SD-1.net! But minus anything and everything beyond 31 Dec 2003. *pouts* Nearly two months worth of threads, posts and fics forever lost in the black hole of cyberspace. And that piece of news is what kept me from doing the happy dance.



This is just so..



*sighs*



But SD-1 is up and running again. So I should be happy. Right?



So this is what? Er.. hormones?!



*LOL*

~^~^~^~^~

FL!CK P!CKS: Chasing Diane Keaton



I caught Chasing Liberty last week. Hee. I wasn't even planning on watching it in the first place. I mean, helloooo.. Mandy Moore?! But it was one of those spur of the moment, "nagkayayaan sa office" Friday thing. I wasn't thinking too clearly when I said yes to them and it only occurred to me much much later that I had agreed to watch a Mandy Moore movie. *facepalm* By then, I felt too much of a cow to back out.



So the movie... it was a light and flufffeh feel-good film. If sap makes you feel good, that is. *LOL* I'm not saying that it's flat out terrible. I'd even go as far as saying that it wasn't as bad as I had expected it to be. Though I must say that it's the B-plot romance that's wholly responsible for that last sentence. I loved Weiss and Morales! Those two secret servants had much more chemistry and tension than the actual leads. Theirs was the typical cat and dog bickering that romantic comedies are made of. Nothing really new to crow about but their sparring was a delight to watch. And that alone saved my viewing experience from completely going down the drain.



But I still feel robbed of my P130.



*****



I was glued to the tube last night. After watching Gilmore Girls and Jade, I was still feeling restless so I decided to watch Something's Gotta Give.



I luff it!



It was funny and touching and just made me forget about everything else while I was watching it. And that's how you know how effectively entertaining a film is, right? When it allows you to drift from the real world without keeping track of real time. Coz when it was over and I looked at the clock, only then did I realize that it was already 2:30 in the morning. [o.O]



And OMG, I don't think I've ever seen Diane Keaton look more beautiful. She was positively radiant. You know like everytime Erica smiles, I find myself actually smiling back at her character. *sheepish*



But I'm not saying that SGG is without its flaws. It certainly has its tedious moments (Erica's post non-break up crying bouts, for instance) but I'm laying off my nitpicking and letting those annoying scenes slide if only for the general impression I was left with. I can't quite put my finger on it but by the film's end, I was looking all goofy and wistful and unable to wipe the silly smile off of my face.



And how can that ever be considered a bad thing?



Luff it!

~^~^~^~^~

Aba Aba Abba



Our friendly neighbor is at it again. Before, it was Sarah Geronimo. Then came Sex Bomb and Masculados. Now, they've been playing Abba music for the past three days.



Maddening!



*stomp*



I'm sorely tempted to play equally blaring music. You know, just for spite. But I don't think they'll get the message. Ja-face mga yun eh. Feeling ko, lalo lang silang mag-e-enjoy.



*rolls eyes*